I am presuming your curiosity brings you here. let me do my best to tell you something about me.
as a young child, I grew up and raised in an evangelical institution. the city we lived are dominated by evangelical churches, second to none in number. My parents were separated (no divorce law in my country) so they left us to my grandparents.
at this age, I joined the music ministry in the church. I was the youngest at 9 or 10 yrs old. oh yes, that didn’t excuse me from Sunday school classes of which I learned moralities from the teachers
when I reach my high school years, I told my mentor. “my hands and eyes have caused me to sin. I am bothered seriously to cut and gouge it off !” because Jesus says so in Matthew 18:8-9. my mentor deflected and said “Oh! it means you have to stop whatever your hands are doing, your eyes should stop seeing the things that is causing you to sin. what cut off means is to stop your bad habit, and not your hands or gouge your eyes
after that conversation I felt so condemned. why? because the more I tried to “cut-off” or “stop” my bad habit, the worst it becomes. then later I learned the art of confession “1 john 1:9”
during college, I joined a Pentecostal denomination church and joined the music ministry also. it was the height of my so called ministry. I felt called by God and was so focused on serving in the kingdom. giving all my strength, loving God with all my heart, soul, mind – the whole 9 yards of serving. the words from my high school mentor still lingers on my mind “Love the Lord your God, with all your heart…” completing the sentence with “Just do this and you will be fine”
22 years after, about year 2009, I got saved. whoa, hold on! you said you were raised in the evangelical and in the music ministry. aren’t you supposed to be a Christian ever since childhood? Yes and No
Yes ‘I grew up in the churchy and a pseudo Christian environment and joined the music ministry at the age of 9-10. But it would be down right foolish to believe that one must be truly a believer if simply can be found in the church? right? not all who goes to church are genuine believers. not even pastor (I’ve seen a lot of them)
No ‘I was never a genuine believer. i was simply a church member, doing his duty and fulfilling a role. a part of the music group. a servant. a follower of Christ. a heavenly appliance for good use’
The Generation Curse?
Some few years back 1998, I got hold on to a teaching about generational curse. it says ‘Christians can be under a generational curse’. this teaching was so prevalent in the Pentecostals that time and I was with the denomination. in the teaching pamphlet it says “List down all your sins and you have to confess all your past and present sins so that you will be redeem from the curse”. almost all church members are into it. newly recruit to the church are almost immediately undergo this thing called “deliverance sessions”.
in this “deliverance sessions”, the facilitator gives you a form with items for check list and blank spaces to fill out the different kinds of sin you committed. yes, list all your nasty sins. it was so embarrassing. worst you undergo the same pain and condemnation again as some sins are too personal.
after completing the ‘sin list’ (better remember all your sins or else) you will have to undergo sessions, 1 person on 2 facilitator. I will explain later why 1 on 2 and not 1 on 1. this so called sessions have certain practices to reverse the curse. they will itemize your sins. yes. each one of them and sort of like, reverse the curse that is associated with it. the reason for 1 on 2, is because some ‘so called Christians’ who participates in this sessions would ‘react’
‘react’ means because the ‘so called Christian’ acts like someone who is possessed by an evil spirit. this ‘so called Christians’ would speak different voices and opposite. some would vomit. some would discharge bad odor (fart?). according to the teaching they say it was the demon lurking in that person
that teaching got me bugged down, discouraged, stressed and worst of all – fearful and condemned! because every time something bad happens to me, i will become so anxious and fearful thinking “I must have forgotten to confess a small sin”. my conclusion is ‘I am still under curse’.
then I will have to watch out for small sin. because any small sin, like a white lie will be an entry point for the devil. then I am under curse again. everyone at the church was so sin and devil conscious. people there knows a lot about the devil and less of Jesus.
The Gain – God found Me
Coincidentally, the day i lost my job was the same day I got saved. it was in 2009. I am a family man with 3 kids and a pregnant wife that time, so you can paint the picture. I went home depressed from office. why depressed? because I have to settle a bond, a huge amount of money as a result of the lost job. turned on the t.v. for the late night news, but with no interest, randomly flip the remote channel, landed to a preaching on a random channel.
The preacher was teaching on the “Genealogy of Jesus”. I said, “way to go man”. would you hear a genealogy preaching when you are depressed? who preaches on the genealogies by the way to begin with? nobody in my entire life have ever such preached on it. boring is not even the right word to describe it. or was it?
A few seconds past as I hear from this preacher, my ears and eyes immediately glued to the t.v. as he tells the backgrounds and history of each person in the genealogy list! as I intently listen, the more vivid and clear the family tree picture becomes.
I see it! Jesus’ ancestors were imperfect! there were Murderers, Adulterers, Liars, Prostitutes and not all of them are Jews, some are Gentiles too.
a light bulb moment. My Goodness! I came to my senses! I am redeemed from the generational curse already because of Jesus! he whom the Son (Jesus) sets free, is free indeed! I am free, I am redeemed. That’s what it is all about for Jesus to be hanged on a tree, the cross. to redeem those under the curse of the Law because “curse is the one hanged on a tree” – Galatians.
I had a true ‘change of mind’ – metanoia – repentance. Jesus as a man, came from a defective family background. His ancestors were imperfect, worst sins! Rahab was a prostitute. Tamar was too. David committed adultery with Bathsheba. David a murderer. and the list goes on.
Jesus perfected my lineage. I am a New Creation, born into His perfect perfect genealogy, not earthly but heavenly. God is now my ‘abba’ / daddy/Father. my lineage now starts with Jesus.
I NOW HAVE A BRAND NEW PAST
after hearing this preacher, I felt so good. It was my first time to hear message about God’s Righteousness, Peace and Joy. the message was indeed good news. It is good news because I just heard the Gospel preached. (I realized later gospel means good news).
Finally the peace that passes all understanding is in my heart and my conscience are at rest.
I now have Jesus – the Prince of peace
No more repetitive deliverance, no more repetitive confession of sins. Christ died once and for all, for all sins. He was hanged to redeem me from the curse.
once and for all, all sins Past, Present and Future sins. all done, finished at the cross. it is Finished.
Before I got truly saved, I received Jesus more than 7 times, as far as I can remember. uttered the sinners prayer many times, because my conscience was never secured. who knows I might die during sleep. but today its no more like that.
So when you ask Jesus to come into your Life, make sure you Hear the Gospel of God. the Gospel in which the Righteousness of God is revealed and not your sinfulness. You have the right to know what is it that Jesus is saving you from. it is for your conscience sake
Jesus paid all my sins, past present and future sins! not according to my ability to remember or confess all of my sins. not according to my knowledge, but according to God’s knowledge.
God declared and fulfilled “I will forgive your sins and will remember them no more”
I pray that you be blessed by this blog in different ways. I do not have the best written and spoken English out there, so the Holy Spirit will guide you. I have so much to testify, if I do that then I will fill up the entire site.
Listen to messages that talks about God’s righteousness, messages that points to Christ. Listen to messages that says God is no longer angry with you! messages that does not remind you of your sins! messages that tell about God’s love for you (grace) and not your requirement to love God (Law).
LISTEN TO MESSAGES THAT UNVEILS JESUS & NOT MESSAGES THAT POINTS TO YOU
“For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, that no one should boast”
– Ephesians 2:8-9
amen and amen and amen
– grace and peace